GRACE ANCHORED JOURNEY

Is there such strength in brokenness?

I asked myself during those times when I felt that my strength had gone. I was like a small tree with such dry leaves and unattractive appearance, ready to be thrown away.

But I discovered that most often than not, brokenness paves its way to resiliency, and eventually, God will supply the needed strength to get up and move on. As what my favorite line in the movie is, suffering and pain won’t destroy our faith. It refines it. It renews our faith and soars into a different height.

In my brokenness, I found treasures that I could never have gained without it.

We find in the Scripture some examples of people who were broken and in pain. Yet in the end, they were purified. Their faith was tested and refined. Joseph, when he was abandoned, there might be excruciating pain that he could not talk with anyone but God. David was broken and his soul became weary when he realized how he sinned against His holy God. There’s even Paul who was broken by Him in the road to Damascus.

Joseph, in His brokenness, learned to trust God even more. David, in His brokenness, turned to God for forgiveness. Paul, in His brokenness came to know Christ.

We experience brokenness in many ways. And this brokenness is not something that will cause us to be away from His sight if we will not let the enemy twist its purpose. Our brokenness when we lift it up to God can be a story of mercy, grace, and love. In the end, the common denominator of our brokenness will be to get closer to our Father in Heaven.

Being in that little room, holding that small paper that contained my diagnosis, my mind was spinning and my heart was slowly being crushed until it finally broken into pieces. I felt the pain. On the other side, I started to feel numb. Those people around seemed to just pass through in the cluttered compartments of my mind. They did not matter anymore. It’s only God and me.

Months after, I was so amazed how God had slowly healed my soul. I realized that my fears won’t do me any good. It would only paralyze and cause me to function just the way I should be. My fears of tomorrow and my present pain, if I continue living with them, they would steal my joy for today.

Hence, I started to function normally. There were moments when I could still find myself crying during the night, but it was no longer because of fears but gratitude that God intervened even in this seemingly mishap of my life.

How can we have that strength in brokenness?

Hold fast for what is right and true. “Prove all things; hold fast that which is good.” 1 Timothy 5:21

Learn to trust God amidst the situation. “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.: Proverbs 3:5-6

Wait on the Lord. “But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31

There is beauty in brokenness.

Enjoy the journey.