Where can we find our resting place? In this chaotic world where we live in, is it still possible to find a resting place with serenity and peace?
The ideas of medical bills, loans, daily provision, household finances, and work crowded my mind as I tried to concentrate on writing them down to avoid anything being missed out. “Lord, I could not take it anymore,” I prayed to God. “What about my healing?”
I’ve been contemplating a lot lately. Beyond my smiles, there’s this heavy feeling inside that I carry with me. It’s exhausting to brush it off knowing that it may appear anytime. I hate that feeling of being restless when I could not even do anything about it. I know I should not be like this. I wanted to be away and just be at rest like David’s please (Psalm 55:6) when he was afraid of what’s going on around.
There were mornings when I woke up already feeling tired. I felt tired because things got overwhelming on my perspective. I got restless because I want to cast all my problems away. I was restless because I functioned more than I could. I was restless because I was in constant motion. I forgot how to be still.
Though, I had not missed my quiet times with Him, I felt the mechanical motion as I tried to focus my mind with what I was reading instead of letting my mind drift away from reality. There were moments when I could utter the statement, “If only I had much, then I guess it would have been easier.”
But the Holy Spirit convicted me. It was almost hearing Him saying, “Am I not enough to get you through whatever you are experiencing? Did I not say to just rest in me?” A sudden guilt crept into my heart.
Why is it so easy to forget God’s faithfulness?
God led me to a familiar verse that I had known for many years and yet, it is not until today that I have truly come to rest on it. Jesus said in Matthew 28 “ Come to me those who are heavy laden and I will give you rest. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light” (28).
Yes, that’s what I needed to keep moving. REST. I need rest during these moments. But I was looking for it in wrong things and places. For as long as I was caught up with the things around, I would be restless.
What do I need to do now? To take His yoke and burden – not mine. I have to respond to His invitation to rest in Him. Like Elijah, I need to pause and choose to rest not minding about what will take place one event to another.
How wonderful is God’s promise of giving us rest. He did not say that He will take away our burdens. Instead, He assured us that He will give us rest. In Him, we find rest and peace when we are drowning in the cares of this life.
Going through such difficult times makes me understand more about life and God. These past months had been so tough once again. But looking at my calendar, first quarter had quickly passed by. During those moments of heartaches and crying times, the Lord never failed to supply His amazing grace.
Will I imagine myself being free from troubles? I would not understand God’s deliverance. Not needing anything for the day? I would not learn to pray for daily provision. What I need to understand is that I can rest in the loving arms of my Savior. When we are tired of fighting, then we would know that it is God who fights our battles.
My situations might not change, but I rest in the full assurance that I can run to my Father and like a child, lean on His loving arms. There, I would find rest in chaos and comfort in distress.
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